Only a week left until the wedding, but quite honestly, I don’t have a whole lot of wedding stuff going on. That seems a little counter logical with the time being so close, and maybe in reality I’m doing more than I realize. It just doesn’t seem like it in comparison to the past several months I guess.
Tonight I have an appointment for a facial. It’ll be my first one ever, so should be a treat. Pampering will feel really good after the last 10 months of planning for sure! I am also today and through the weekend going to be running errands to pick up the last few wedding party gifts and paying off any last vendors that I can prior to the day of. Something I also really need to get to is calling both Matt & I’s mom with their to-do lists. They are eager to help and be put to work but it takes a lot of thought beforehand about timelines, vehicles, etc, to be able to pull all of this off! I knew all these logistics were coming, having an event planning background, but they’re never fun to coordinate!
EUREKA – I just had an EPIPHANY! As I typed that last sentence I realized why everything is still so surreal to me – because it feels like work. Like my job. Like I know it will all come together and be fine and I’m looking at it as ‘just another event.’
Sooo….to get me excited and in the mood to get married, I just decided this: I’ll use my post this week to write a letter of sorts to Matt. Something I wish our church would have allowed us to do is write our own vows (though I know I’m speaking only for myself on that one). This little paragraph can serve that purpose.
“Dear Matt,
I love you. You are my very best friend. You totally get me…probably because you’ve helped make me the person I am—and a better person at that. That’s hard to admit, because for anyone who knew me before, knew that I thought I was pretty darn awesome already. But seeing your relaxed and caring spirit has inspired me. Of course, you’re not only inspirational to me; you’re hilarious. I might offend a few people in saying this, but I never laugh harder with anyone else than you. And you’re welcome. Because I’m pretty sure no one else thinks your jokes are half as funny as I do. I know every single day, bad or good, I will be able to come home to you and hear one of those jokes and get a big bear hug from you and everything will be alright. We’ve already been through our share of those good and bad days over the past several years, and you seem to handle my mood swings on those bad days very well, so I know we’ll be fine forever. I hope to continue to make you as happy as you make me. Here’s to us!”
Ok, now writing that has all kinds of emotions stirring in me. That’s a start. Wish me luck bringing everything together— and holding myself together –next Saturday!
